My Story
Trust me, I’ve been there too… Stuck in an endless loop of burnout. Doing everything I can, pushing myself to to limit to make everything in my life fit, then spinning out, breaking down, only to do it all over again. I first experienced burnout in my early twenties — I was working full time, in a 40 hour per week internship, running the home I lived in with my now husband, trying to have a social life, stay active, and pursue my master’s degree. Whew, I’m exhasted all over again just typing it out! I was stretched in a million directions, putting my well-being on the backburner. I was stressed out, couldn’t focus, felt emotionally all over the place, and wasn’t showing up in any aspects of my life at more than 50%. I mean, I had a rolodex of my to do list constantly running in my head that distracted me from any kind of “in the moment” living.
It took years to recognize that I was stuck in the burnout cycle — push as hard as I can, do as much as possible, only to find myself breaking down, crying at work, laying in bed for hours, and feeling helpless and hopeless. And then I’d do it all again, because I thought the answer was to do more and be better. After 10 years of hustle, working multiple jobs, adding more and more to my plate — I finally broke. I looked in the mirror and didn’t recognize the girl staring back at me. I was dull, foggy, running on fumes, losing weight, stressed to the max, constantly anxious, and feeling completely lost.
After learning to slow down, prioritize my health with the time I have, and realize that if I wasn’t showing up for myself — there was no way I could show up for the thousands of things I was trying to do every day. I found ways to make the habits that support my well being into my busy life, because as much as I want to slow down… I love to stay busy! And I wanted to make it work.
As a new mom, finding the way out of burnout, or recognizing when it starts to creep in, has become even more important in my personal life. I want to continue to balance motherhood, my love for running, showing up for my friends and family, and not losing myself in the process.
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